My Heart's Soundtrack

I started off this blog talking very candidly about my love life, and my current journey of dating in my 30s (which sucks). If you know me off this blog, then you have probably heard the tales about my romantic-comedy/sex-in-the-city/Shonda-Rhimes-show love life. Ever since I discovered boys, and they discovered me, my love life has been far from dull.

Toya T loved the boys. And, when I was younger, I was like a wild horse, constantly seeking, running from one thrill, one sensation to the next. Having a boyfriend did not stop me from flirting or basking in the attention of another guy because I loved the feeling of being desired/loved/wanted/pursued. I craved that feeling, that intense yearning for new sensations. That is how I saw love and relationships. I enjoyed the ebb and flow of meeting a guy, flirting, exchanging numbers, talking, hanging out, making out, having sex, dating, and moving on to next guy/experience/sensation. I fell in love. I fell in lust. I got my heartbroken. I broke hearts and hurt feelings. I cried. I yelled. I forgave. I gave second and third chances. I loved hard. I learned, and I loved again.

As I have gotten older, my thoughts on love and relationships have changed. Mr. Wrong For Me (remember him from "

My Mother Doesn't Want Me To Marry 'My Father'

") chased me down and bridled my wandering spirit. Unfortunately, he had no intentions of riding me. He liked having me in his stable and I allowed myself to wander in and out of his stable for over 10 years. But that saga is a story for another day (if you are interested in how it began and how it ended).

In between all of these moments, I had great music providing the soundtrack to my heart. The songs I posted below are my heart's top 10. When I couldn't express how I felt, these songs said it all. Each one represents a different moment in my heart's journey, whether they were one of my great loves, torrid affairs, and/or wrenching heartbreaks.

Sit back and take a journey through my heart (they are in no particular order).

Dedicating this song to Mr. Wrong For Me...